I have ‘fight club’ going on in my head. It’s been going on for over 2 hours – the battle to resist the bottle. Just like Tyler in the film I am fighting myself which is why it is so very tiring. I used to hate that when I drank it would fill my thoughts and now here it is taking up just as much space to avoid it.
I never thought that 7 weeks in it would be still so intense. I knew to watch out for the trigger times of 3 days, 3 weeks and 3 months but this one was completely unanticipated and therefore unprepared for. I may have to just go to bed, hide under the covers and hope that in the morning it has passed. I don’t know what else to do 🙁