Daily Archives: 08/11/2013

Bottle fatigue ….

I have ‘fight club’ going on in my head.  It’s been going on for over 2 hours – the battle to resist the bottle.  Just like Tyler in the film I am fighting myself which is why it is so very tiring.  I used to hate that when I drank it would fill my thoughts and now here it is taking up just as much space to avoid it.

I never thought that 7 weeks in it would be still so intense.  I knew to watch out for the trigger times of 3 days, 3 weeks and 3 months but this one was completely unanticipated and therefore unprepared for.  I may have to just go to bed, hide under the covers and hope that in the morning it has passed.  I don’t know what else to do 🙁