It’s my birthday today 🙂 It’s not polite to ask a lady her age so I’ll save you the trouble and share that I am 46 today. Holy smokes I’m getting on a bit! 😉
It’s also my second birthday sober which I suspect will be a great deal easier than the last as I was only 6 weeks sober then. Wolfie was still loud and shrill in my ear on that day.
So to continue my systemic desensitization I did something that made me laugh and if anyone else had seen me would have thought I was mad! I recently went to a large supermarket to pick up a few bits and pieces and I’ve kind of avoided the huge looming alcohol aisles for obvious reasons.
But this time time I thought ‘f**k it’ and strolled down one saying out loud to myself as I went ‘I don’t need you anymore, you hold no power over me and I am better off without you’. Fortunately there was no one else in the aisle other wise I’d have been getting some pretty weird looks. And you know what? It felt GOOD 🙂
It is so bloody normalised to drink in this country that I LIKE being different now. I like not being beholden to spending more than I even want to calculate on booze. I like not feeling like sh*t every Saturday and Sunday morning (or any other morning come to that). I like that I don’t reek like a brewery with booze oozing out of every pore for vast swathes of time. I don’t miss the bad skin, bad guts, bad mood, morning fears about what I may have said or done to someone real or virtual under the influence, the stupid things I might have bought on the internet, the lost time that I will never get back. I like everything that being alcohol free has given me and miss nothing about my booze soaked past now.
400 days sober today!!
PS A little birthday gift from me to you. One of my favourite tunes and the video happens to commemorate one of my all time favourite heroes too, the late great Bill Hicks. In the words of The The “if you can’t change the world, change yourself” 😉
And as it’s my second sober birthday two treats! This is a running video that has recently gone viral and happens to be the park where I ran over the summer raising money for Alcohol Concern. Pounding the tarmac through the seasons, a band of runners are brazenly challenged with intimate questions as they pace their routes. Liberated from responsibilities, their guards drop dramatically, releasing funny and brutally frank confessions, and weaving a powerful narrative behind the anonymous masses. For all my sober running buddies – enjoy and if you’ve never run I’d recommend it 🙂