Hello I’m ….. and I am an alcoholic … or am I ?
I really don’t know the answer to that question, but I do know that my drinking was way out of control and needed to be addressed.
I had been drinking heavily, VERY heavily for many years I was physically, and emotionally worn out with it . I wrestled with the concept of sobriety for two years before I finally fully accepted that this was the only way forward for me. Over the two years I spent thousands on therapy with various different therapists all with different views and treatment plans finding out why I drank and ways to help me moderate my drinking in the hope that I could put an end to all this misery. I knew all along that in my heart that I was killing my self with drink but knowing that and accepting that are two very different things. Alcohol was my best friend and worst enemy, I really didn’t have any clue on how / where to start to live without it.
It is such a scary place to find yourself and I was genuinely shocked to have found myself in this place. I considered myself to be a strong person surely I could take this on ?
Once I accepted that sobriety was the only way, I felt relieved, I stopped arguing with myself and decided to start taking action rather than just thinking about it. In December 2014 I set my sober date for January. I completed the Udemy course hangover free life by Louise Rowlinson which was great and gave me lots of tools and information . I subsequently had the follow up telephone call with Louise . Louise was fantastic, she was so understanding and most importantly believed in me and my ability to get sober . She helped me formulate a plan and emailed me every day to see how I was coping . I have to say although it hasn’t been easy it really has been life changing . I have now been sober for one year, although initially I found stopping drinking hard it is something that has become second nature. In the last year I can honestly say I have got my life back. It’s a very different life but a far far better one. I’m still in the process of finding out what I like to do hobbies etc but I’m being kind to myself. Reconstruction of my life has been an exciting time and so many thing have improved, my relationship with my children and partner, my anxiety, appearance. I am truly grateful for not only Louise’s help but also her belief in me at at time when I didn’t believe in myself. Although a stranger to me at the time she turned out to be a person who I will never forget!
So to riff on the theme of gratitude I’m going to continue to offer my Udemy course at it’s discounted price of £60/$89 until the end of January when the price will increase to £99/$149. You can access it via the image to the right of this or via this link Udemy online course. I am so grateful that 500 of you have signed up for this course so far and want to continue to help as many others as possible 🙂
Plus you can still sign up for my How to Quit Drinking workshop in London on Saturday 30th January here.
And now a tune 😉