So this is going to be one of those circular blogs. It started with me hearing Jean at Unpickled say ‘New level, new devil’ during a recent Bubble Hour episode where they were interviewing Anna David from After Party Magazine. That expression struck a chord because although sobriety gets easier as time goes by, you still discover new things that leave you feeling wide open as each new experience can feel like it brings a new demon to face.
Which links with another sober first ace’d this week, a sober wedding. But not any old wedding – the remarriage of my youngest sister who I am exceptionally close to. I was the witness and the whole experience left me very tearful (happy tears!) and wide open. She is my beloved baby sister and we have experience so much together both happy and sad. She looked beautiful in her uniquely individual dreadlocked and steam-punked style and way. That kind of extreme joy can trigger euphoric recall.
And she gave me this album – a shared favourite in The Chemical Brothers but this track featuring Beck is just sublime (and it would seem not just I think that – it’s had almost 8 million views since it was launched 3 weeks ago!). And to complete the circle as a wedding present myself and MrHOF were given tickets to see Beck live at Brixton Academy which was incidently also where I saw The Chem’s 🙂 My sister’s off to see them later this year and I dare not go because I know I’ll just want to go take that euphoric recall and go higher and I can’t do that anymore ….. which makes me both happy to have the memory but sad also.
The still picture at the top of the blog is taken from the video to the track and for me visually expresses the emotional wide open-ness that can come from getting sober or getting married. A leap of faith and hope which brings a new different kind of high which for me triggered both emotional joy, pain and fear as the new level brings new devils to be tamed and understood. Once again Glennon says perfectly what I’m struggling to say …..
Wishing you health, wealth and happiness sis xx