As I’ve continued to read Pete Walker The Tao of Fully Feeling he has described his four essential processes of grieving . So I’m going to add to my knowledge from Kubler-Ross and include it here as a reference for you too.
He argues that “grieving is the key process for reconnecting with our repressed emotional intelligence. Grieving reconnects us with our full complement of feelings. Criticism of emotional expression is especially damaging when it is expressed towards expressions of emotional pain as it forces our all-important capacity for healthy grief into developmental arrest.”
Pete Walker maintains that grieving is not just crying but for it to be fully effective it must include the processes of “angering”, verbal ventilation, and feeling. He says the active resolution comes from crying, “angering” and talking about it whereas the passive resolution comes from simply focusing on and feeling what is stored somatically in our bodies.
- Crying is the healing release of pain through tears. Unashamed crying creates deep, bodily-based feelings of peace and relaxation as tears are the body’s most powerful way of releasing emotional tension. He believes that crying heals ‘catastrophising‘ and ‘drasticizing’ which are forms of toxic shame that taint our thought processes with unfounded perceptions of dread and doom. What Brene Brown calls ‘foreboding joy‘. Crying also allows for positive nostalgia or ‘euphoric recall’.
- Angering is the process of actively expressing anger in a a safe and healthy way and is as essential to effective grieving as crying. He believes we can break the ‘repression-accumulation-explosion-guilt-repression’ cycle by befriending our anger and refusing to guiltily squash it when it arises. He says we can use a range of approaches to releasing anger to allow joy such as: thinking to writing to speaking to shouting to shadowboxing to pounding on pillows to finally breaking expendable objects. He maintains when we finally end our repression of our anger we often feel exuberant relief and that it also builds confidence and self-assertiveness.
- Verbal ventilation is when language is charged with feeling and is the release of pain through talking or writing about it. This is where I have found this blog and therapy the most valuable in moving through my own grief. It is also therapeutic he says to record jokes, anecdotes, and incidents that make you laugh as these can serve as heartening reminders of the joys of life. Swearing is a powerful form of verbal ventilating particularly if you chose words judiciously and sparingly. He also talks about fully emoting which is when we cry, rage and verbally ventilate all at the same time!
- Feeling is the process of grieving that focuses on pain with the intention of relaxing any resistance to it, so that it may pass through and out of the body. I often think of funeral wakes when I think of this as this is where I would use alcohol to not feel the pain and sadness that the loss had triggered. Some of my most spectacular relapses when I was moderating were after funerals where I would hold it together at the event and then drown myself in alcohol on getting home. Feeling involves the direction of attention to the internal experiences in the body below the realm of thinking. Feeling experiences are often accompanied by physical sensations in the heart area or “guts”. No wonder I struggled with Irritable Bowel Syndrome (IBS) for so much of my adult life. Feeling is a kinesthetic rather than a cognitive experience. It’s why I’ve avoided yoga for so long – as I know that this is where I finally need to release the somatic feeling states that I’ve been resisting facing in recovery. After all this therapy I know they are there and I’ve been scared to confront them …..
He finishes by saying that a balanced approach to grieving includes an openness to feeling emotions as well as emoting feelings. He says “if we do not accept and value both processes, we will not become fully feeling human beings”.
Here’s to moving on to the next and final stage of learning to fully feel – connecting totally the mind and body experience where feeling becomes a spiritual experience. He says “perhaps the greatest freedom attainable is that which is born out of a consistent willingness to stay lovingly and acceptingly present to whatever unfolds inside oneself.”
I saw this film again recently and this clip felt so apt: